One Whole Month

Benny, you are a whole month old. Being honest this has been the hardest month of my whole life. but in a good way. Im outnumbered and i only have to two hands but three mouths to feed and two sessions of diaper changing and a little house that fails to stay clean. For such a little guy you make more laundry then the four of us combine. Its ok though, I got this. its been a month and im working it. Atleast i think, hope, i am. We have our moment’s every day that each of us fall apart but we pick each other back up and we keep going forward. i dont want to rush through this time (even though, some days are just plain hard!) i have learned that this time with you as a baby will pass way too quickly. i know i will miss and long for this time with you again. you are my last baby baby and i know i will always look at you this way. My love for you and your brothers is over the moon, each of you are perfect in your own ways. i cant wait to see the little boy you become. learn your personality. watch you grow. grow with you. Benny you are currently 11 pounds and 23 inch. (born at 8.5, 20 inch) the beginning of this month you had a hard time keeping your milk down. you spit up alot, more than normal. i took you to the doctor twice fearing you may have acid reflux, but i have tried different things and i think we have it covered now. your doing much better. you love your swing, and the vibrator chair. But you have to be on your side or belly while in them or your not a happy camper. you smile already! which at first i didnt beleive you were smiling at me but you are. you react to people when they talk to you, your brothers the most. To see you three together makes me so happy, they love and cherish you so much. always kissing and hugging you. Sometimes they make me nervous but you never cry, brady can be right in your face and you just let him. Reid sings to you, and brady pats your back. when you cry brady always yells "mom" and points to you till i pick you up. hes so worried. when you were about three weeks he picked you up from your chair, you were crying and so was he, i got to you both quickly and let him help me comfort you. You came in to an insanely loud and crazy house and thank goodness most of the time you can sleep right through it. You sleep very well through the night, you wake about two times to eat which is really good for me cause mommy needs sleep (and coffee). Benny, im so proud and blessed to be your mom. you boys are my best gift. im so lucky. im sad to see this month fly by, but im so excited to see you grow. i love you mom